Sunday, August 11, 2013

*trigger warning* Pics from the funeral home



And then I wailed. I screamed that's not my baby that doesn't look like him!! Where's my baby? He's still alive! GIVE HIM BACK!!!!

But it was him.... That's how death will change your baby... This is how death changed my baby. His body was stiff and cold yet felt still like him. 


  1. Honey I love you, and my pain will never be as great as yours, but I can start to see your struggles and I wish I could make it go away. I am here I love you and I love Bram and miss his presents in my view.

  2. I can't imagine your pain...I really have no words other than I'm sending you and your family love. Thank you for sharing such personal, precious photos with us.

  3. I stumbled on your blog through a fb page I'm on and I have finally gotten through all of your posts. I say a prayer for you and for Bram every night. I have a two year old daughter and Bram goes through my mind at least 20 times a day. Ever since I started reading your blog, I don't text at stoplights. I am a more vigilent driver. You made me realize how distracted we all are. I am so very sad for you. I am in tears crying for Bram and for you and your family. If you EVER want to call me and tell me a story about Bram or talk about how you feel or anything, I am a stranger, but I would listen as a friend.

  4. I am so, so sorry for your loss. My little boy passed away in March-also from a sudden accident. I know there is absolutely nothing I can say that will make that knot in your chest loosen, but know that your beautiful son KNEW that he was loved. You are such a good mama to let his toys rest with him; I wasn't strong enough for that. My boy's two favorite ponies sleep every night in my bed with me. I wish your family didn't have to feel this pain.

  5. I've been following your blog since you started. Your blogs are so powerful. Pure raw emotions. And to post these precious pictures of your beautiful Bram, amazing. Who cares what people think about you doing it. Who cares that you took the pictures to begin with. I would do the same if faced with the situation. Amazing courage to show these. Much love to you, hubby and your other littles.


Thanks for reading and loving Bram!